We can do hard things

I have been having Glennon Doyle life reflections lately. Last week I traveled half way across the world alone with my baby, and quarantined in Jakarta for 5 nights on way back to Bali. I had been quite nervous in the days leading up to my departure from America.

Alas the night before traveling was hectic. Three fourths of all that I packed was for Kylila, trying to forward plan on what are the bare essentials for food, changing, and safety. I was so lucky my family was able to help me go through the checklist and organize. To ease my anxiety of the responsibility I kept reminding myself if other mothers before me have successfully done this, there is no reason why I can't. Plus, we can do hard things!

So how was this much anticipated long journey? Sleepless, and a bit scary at times, but overall I had so many moments where I just looked at Kylila and was in awe of how I have been blessed with such a wonderful baby :). Even after I deliriously forgot my hand luggage in the airport in Jakarta and only noticed after we were on our way to the hotel at 1am local time, she was a trouper as we returned back to retrieve it. I also was reminded of how many people there are in the world who were willing to do random acts of kindness, from the hostesses on the flights who were always checking on us, to the security at the airport who helped me with my luggage, to the hotel representative, Rashid in Jakarta who kindly helped translate for me back in the airport and search for my missing bag!

Though being alone in a room for 5 days with Kylila was a bit tricky due to jetlag and feeling a bit trapped, it was also a special time for us to bond in a new way, no other distractions, just us.

Plus the best part was after 10 weeks of being apart from my husband, we were reunited as a family in Bali! Seeing her mesmerized by him, touching is face upon arrival was one of the sweetest things I've ever seen!

Hard, yes, Worth it, absolutely :)